stories of poisoned wells and children being thrown to the sharks

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 07:40:40 GMT

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~~to be added.~~ nvm i just added you all anyway.

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 22:54:06 GMT

abuhhh. guess who. hah, look at my queer hand. and those cheeks!
my mom gave me this one hug thing yesterday, and sobbed and pointed at that picture and said she wished i could be like that again. hmph!

i love to ruin perfectly good pictures!

and tell me what this font might be called..

and if i can try to download it from you or something. IT WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED. i do reward favors with loving!
♥

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 07:09:29 GMT

happy birthday to my little sister.
♥

pretty much..

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 20:13:19 GMT

When will I see you again?
When will we share precious moments?
Will I have to wait forever?
Or will I have to suffer
and cry the whole night through?

When will I see you again?
When will our hearts beat together?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end?
When will I see you again?

Are we in love or just friends
Is this my beginning or is this the end
When will I see you again...

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 00:39:52 GMT

oh, here are some pictures from last weekend!

burnt grilled cheese.

denisey poo!

marie!

maries crack!

lol marie was coming.

nasty disgusting tj poo water.

and this picture cracks me the fuck up!
[[EDITED AND REMOVED.]]

stephanies dog, fritos ((frida)) chillin on my pillow.

and that is the end of me!

six hundred sixty six! the # of the beast.

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 23:07:12 GMT

well i had a nice lil night last night. kimbo picked me up around 6 or 630ish. headed out with renee, tiffanie, kim, karina, jean, krystal, and jessica. ate out at corvette diner. THEY TOLD EM IT WAS MY FREAKIN BIRTHDAY. but at least i got free cheesecake!
edward called but it was just weird. he tripped me out. enough of that, we went to IB, just messed arround, bullshitted. then went downtown. someone kept calling me big bear coz of this fatty jacket i was wearing. SHIT AT LEAST I WAS WARM, HOMIE.
came home around 130. good times. i showed everyone my piercings cept rene, jessica and kim. hey what the hell, im among close female friends.
i should be going with krystal to get them done next week. thatll be sweet. BOOBS! haha.

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 09:41:32 GMT

went to margarita rocks last night. it was alright. i danced but it was pretty damn lame. cant wait til tj this weekend.
i got my nipples pierced. and wow did that hurt. but mmmm, i liked it. nipple biting is one thing but now i got jewelery on it! hehhe. 0:-)
im still getting my chest piece done either next weekend or the weekend after that. i cant wait. :D

wow, daria is on. i havent seen that show in a long time.

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 23:51:18 GMT

MARGARITA ROCKS HERE I COME.

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 19:17:47 GMT

happy birthday to me!

BFF.

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 18:34:40 GMT

I am so facking sore right now. We went on a goddamn fuckin cocksucking mission/hike yesterday and that shit was FEROCIOUS. i dont know how far we walked but it was uphill the whole way there and MAN, i am not used to that for sure. Plus, it was hot as all hell. We some pretty waterfalls up the mountain and I took plenty of pictures. I took them with my camera phone but I have to send them to my email first. I cut Carolina and Stephanies hair and they tutully love it forever a million. The only thing that fuckin sucked was that Stephanies dog will NOT leave me the fack alone. Crawlin all over my head and my fuckin body while im trying to sleep. that lil betch.
April is supposed to pick me up in a little bit to take me to Universal Studios? Her and Angel invited me. Suh weeeet. I dont think im going to school tomorrow either. coz its totally my birthday and i DONT fackin wanna.
Sorry this was such a shitty post. im out. my body feels used and abused

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 03:42:48 GMT

Im at stephanies as of right now and I seriously couldnt be happier. I havent seen her in what seemed like forever. And now that I have I don't want to let her go! Veronica loving for life! Yesterday we didnt really do to much. But we headed to the beach today. Pretty damn fun/hella cold! She took pictures but I dont really want ot post. But Im sure she will, stephanie. Hm, theres been some drama. And now that Im here its out in the open. It really has nothing to do with me, but Im glad that people are starting to say how they really feel about everything to everyone. Yup but no drama for me. I aint down with that shit, yo.
My birthday is in two days and the only reason why Im excited is because I want to get my tattoo done. I already know what i want. ;D You kiddos will have to wait and see. I have two tattoo plans actually. But I have to wait for the $$$$.

Im off.

this song makes me.. warm inside.

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 08:29:08 GMT

Im in a pretty shitty mood. I feel so goddamn lonely. I always get this way at night. I have all this love to give away and no one wants to take it. I dont want to sleep alone tonight. Ive got a headache up the ass right now and its definetly not helping. Jesus, I could go for some major cuddle action.
Someone throw a big comfy pillow my way.
I have the oppurtunity to go to New fuckin York next weekend. My dads over there for some business shit and were able to go. It was either that or visit my best friend in Hemet tomorrow, whom i havent seen in.. hmm, since before summer started, i know that much. But since shes my best friend, and i know this is the only oppertunity to get to see her, I CHOSE HER. my best friend/lesbian lover/dotter. I honestly believe Id have more fun with her than in NY. unless i was with HER in NY. Besides I dont want to be in NY with my dad. UGHH.
stephanie, if i come over tomorrow and im acting a little depressed, ill tell you why exactly later. hopefully this is just a one night thing.
welp, I have to go finish packing. why doesnt some shout me a holla, hmm?
8521389. anytime bitches. im always up.

No Love. No Glory.

WOW, what i would fuckin give just to have this.. =[

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 03:37:29 GMT

Tell her you think shes cool.
Tell her why you think shes so cool.
Smell her hair.
Talk to her in movie theatres.
Pick her up and pretend youre going to throw her in the river;
shell scream and fight you but secretly, she`ll love it.
Hold her hand
and skip.
Hold her hand and run.
Just hold her hand.
PICK FLOWERS
FROM OTHER PEOPLES
GARDENS AND GIVE
THEM TO HER.
Tell her she's pretty.
Let her pay if she wants to.
INTRODUCE HER TO YOUR FRIENDS
AS THE COOLEST GIRL YOU KNOW.
Sit in the park and talk to her.
JUST TALK TO HER.
Take her to the library
TAKE HER ANYWHERE.
Tell her dirty jokes.
TELL HER HAPPY STORIES.
TELL HER SAD STORIES.
TELL HER YOUR STORIES.
TELL HER ANYTHING
Tell her stupid jokes.
Write poems about her.
Just walk with her.
Throw pebbles at her window
When she starts swearing at you,
... tell her YOU LOVE HER.
Take her to shows of
bands shes never
heard of.
Hold her hand in the mosh pit.
LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN YOUR ARMS.
Call her.
Call her back if she calls you.
SING TO HER,
no matter how
bad you are.
Carve your names into a tree.
GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.
Give her piggy-back rides.
Go see her band play even
if they really suck,
and tell her they were great.
Give her space if she needs it.
Push her on swings.
Stay up with her all night when shes sick.
Make up pet names for her,
but cool ones, not sappy ones.
Teach her guitar.
Lend her your cds.
WRITE ON HER.
WRITE ABOUT HER.
MAKE HER MIXTAPES.
Write her letters.
Take her to cool shops,
and let her take you to even cooler ones.
Just hang out
with her.
LISTEN TO ALL THE BANDS
SHE MENTIONS.
Dont tell her that her favorite bands suck.
When shes sad,
hang out with her
or
STAY ON THE PHONE
WITH HER,
EVEN IF SHES NOT SAYING ANYTHING.
Buy her ice cream.
Let her take all the photos of you she wants.
Look into her eyes.
Slow dance with her,
even if the music is fast.
TELL HER A SECRET.
Kiss her in the rain...
JUST KISS HER.
TRUST HER.
LOVE HER.
BE YOURSELF AROUND HER.
CHERISH HER
. . . and
when
you
fall
in
love
with
her..

TELL
HER....

INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE! INSANE. GOT NO BRAIN!

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 21:21:25 GMT

What a night i had last night. After class Nelly invited me over to cut her hair, which I did and its way hot, mind you. But at around ten, we called like 4 people INCLUDING edward, and none of them called back like they said they would. We had to find me a goddamn ride home coz I wasnt about to call my mom and ask her to pick me up. [[i had told her i had a ride home]]. So I stayed at her house til around three just doing shit. But after I cut her hair we had to do something with all that hair that fell onto the towel so I went into her front yard to the trash to throw it in there. After we came inside, and I thought I had bad breath or something coz it started smelly pretty shitty. Literally, turns out when I went outside I had stepped in cat shit! GUH! I really dont think my night could have been any worse. The whole house started smelling REALLLLY bad. I felt so fuckin horrible coz I had tracked some of it on the carpet, that we got out, thank god.
After that, we called edward back but he didnt answer. He didnt know whether or not he was getting outta work at 11 or not. but he SAID he would call back. Shit, dont tell us youll call back if you wont. Buttnut. anyway, I just ended up walking all the way to my grandmas around three in the morning. FUCK, it was soooooooo cold! I kept breathing hard the whole way and my breath turned to icicles. I kept turning around afraid that someone was following me or a dog might attack me or some shit. Im pretty sure I could take a dog on depending how big it was. Anyway, no dogs, no stalkers. phew. UUUUUUUUUH. then when I got to my grandmas house she was still awake, thank god. Now i know who I get my insomnia from. heh. And she was asking me all these questions and yelling at me NEVER EVER to walk like that again and I should have just called her and yadda yadda. Heh, I love my nana.
So thats pretty much how my night went. And Im coughing like crazy right now.
Hopefully going to visit my best friend/lesbian lover/dotter in the whole wide world will make me feel better.

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 01:26:46 GMT

school sucks, someone rescue me.

[[edit]] like right now!

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 22:14:10 GMT

ugh, my uterus hurts.

- burps -

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 19:45:06 GMT

I realllllly need to start looking for a job already. It should be between next week and the end of the month that I start looking. Ive already picked out which one that I WISHED I worked at. Though, Im getting a little desperate for money ovuh here. "Want some mooooooney?" Hhahaha, Have any of you seen that Anna Nicole commercial? "Want to plaaaaay?" Hahhaha, I love that shit. Pure comedy.
Ive got a lot of work to do. English, history, and algebra. All assigned sometime in NoV-Dec. And Ive only done a little sliver of it. :D Im a horrible student. Im here sitting on my internet when I SHOULD be working on it. BOOOOO ON THAT! Sometimes my brain works, sumtyms it duznt.
Ok that was lame shut up i know.
Im on gay myspace right now. And Im finding hella people I recognize. From Mar Vista AND from 29 palms. Too bad I think they all forgot about me.
God, who cares. I need to go finish getting ready. Peace to all my homies.

hey you! get off my cloud! you dont know me and you dont know my style!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 07:37:19 GMT

styles unbreakable, shatterproof
to the young youth, ya wanna get gun? SHOOT!
BLAOW! how you like me now? don't fuck the style
ruthless wild!
do ya wanna getcha teeth knocked the FUCK out?
wanna get on it like that, well then shout!

you think anyone would want a round-house kick to the face with these bad boys on?

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 08:24:53 GMT

I have something on my mind its been kind of scaring me. I hope Im not right because that would change my life forever. Not in a bad way, but not exactly in a good way.
Idk. I just think Im really paranoid. Well, I KNOW I am. But I hope that this has something to do with it.
I am soon to find out probably this week. -crosses fingers-
Im being completely blunt on this entry for a reason. I dont want blabs.

her: i hafta fuuuuurt
me: well what are ya waiting for
her: i dunno
me: make them buttcheeks flap gurrrrrl!

me: dude and i told my mom like 3094875 years ago that i had a lump on my chest and she never took me to the dr for that
me: pfft
doodle lips: hahahahaha aw
me: and i was walking in the living room and shes all 'your loosing weight to! your pants are falling off'
me: i told her my pants are always falling off and that im slowly withering away
me: next thing you know youll find a pile of dust in my bed
doodle lips: ghaha aw
doodle lips: hahahahahahaha bitch

fuck the pain away

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 12:10:20 GMT

Sucking on my titties like you wanted me
Calling me, all the time like Blondie
Check out my chrissy behind
It's fine all of the time
Like sex on the beaches
What else is in the teaches of peaches? Huh? What?

thanks mike, now i cant stop listening to that song.

anyways, ITS POLL TIME, BABY!

a :: http://www.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=138516&CategoryID=6788

b :: http://www.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=120150&CategoryID=6788

c :: http://www.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=120145&CategoryID=15347#

what do you think? theyre pretty expensive for my taste. if i had taste. but thier all sweet looking. the black ones more than the white ones.

CMON GIMME OPINIONS MAN!!

[[ps]] look at this! i never heard of this. or have ever seen it before.

i cant make it bigger due to fagotry reasons. but guh!

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 05:10:22 GMT

hurruh! new jacket for moi!

oh no! im getting sick! [[cough cough]]
and my feet smell pretty damn ferocious right now. eeeeee

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 16:30:05 GMT

Boy! I sure do love when people go around spreading my personal business! Oh and cant forget when people text me at 8 in the morning, asking if I did this or I did that..

Jesus.

good morning to all you mutha fuckin knotty headed niggas!

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 19:23:20 GMT

i rip it hardcore like porno flick bitches

i stuck my 10 g on my nosey just to see what i would look like if i got my septum pierced. my sister said it looks good. idk. im thinking about it.

Time will tell on their power minds
Making war just for fun
Treating people just like pawns in chess
Wait 'till their judgement day comes
Yeah!

Now in darkness, world stops turning
Ashes wither, bodies burning
No more war pigs of the power
Hand of God has struck the hour
Day of judgement, God is calling
On their knees, the war pigs crawling
Begging mercy for their sins
Satan laughing, spreads his wings
OH LORD YEAH!

Now im off to finish my homework. got class in 4 hrs!
easy cheesy, im out like a breezy!

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 19:02:47 GMT

Birthday is in 14 days. I know, i keep counting down. only losers do that, but screw it. I find it a little surreal.
I didnt go to school yesterday on account of I didnt finish my history work! or my algebra! or my english! aieeeeee. Im soo behind. If i keep this shit up, i wont be able to graduate in april. Uncool. Im the most unmotivated retard anyone will ever know. Definetly not one of my good traits. =D
I LOVE THE RAIN! i hope it rains all winter! My apartments are flooded as hell and i love it that way!

Hopefully Im going to be job hunting after the next two weeks. I need one desperately. I need to start taking care of my own shit, coz I hate relying on others. I promised my mom I would give her my first paycheck. I guess just as a thank you for supporting me my whole life and putting up with my shit. Coz I do admit, I was a bad kid that needed a major attitude adjustment. Its calmed down but I still cop a tude once in a while. So yay for my first paycheck going to her!
Well i am off now! bye bye my pretties.

ps. my journal isnt friends only anymore. i dont have shit to hide from anyone.

The moises. My Biological father.

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:37:39 GMT

How much of an asshole can you be? Aparently, 100 percent.
I am trying so fuckin hard right now to keep my cool, be chill, and just calm the fuck down. But its hard when youre always in my ear, 24.7 trying to talk shit.
Youre ALWAYS trying to fuckin start an argument with everyone. you say its not on purpose and that youre just trying to state something. Fuck that. I know you. Thats not true.
Youre the most hypocritcal, unintelligent, disrespectful, fucktard i have EVER known. And I have met quite a few people.
You talk to me like everything is a-ok in the end. Dont play stupid. I know your little games.
Im so fuckin fed up with your bullshit. Complete and utter bullshit. Dont act so tough, little boy.
You say one thing, and mean another. What the fuck is up with your personality?
God sure did fuck you over, didn't he?
You state your goddamn opinion about things I like and thier always negative. Not ONCE has it been positive. You know that saying, if you dont have anything nice to say, dont say it at all? Well, fuck dood, thats the understatement of the century.
How much would i like to sew your mouth shut with skewers? A lot.
Ive been putting up with your fuckin bullshit for years now.
You tell me that I need to start going to church, and that i'm steering off the path. The path of what? Righteousness?
Honey, I was never on it.
In conclusion, Get off your high horse and quit the drama your causing yourself.

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